June 8th, my mom’s birthday, was a day I had been
dreading for quite some time. According to the grief books I have been reading,
birthdays, anniversaries, and other special holidays following a loved one’s kicking of the bucket death can be extremely
difficult. So far the experts were spot on with Easter. My feelings during
Mother’s Day were indifferent. The good Lord decided to throw me a
bone, and I flew over 15 different time zones that day, inadvertently skipping
the majority of that stupid holiday. And
yesterday, well it wasn’t so bad after all!
Lavish celebrations for my mom’s birthday were never really
a tradition in our family. Throughout the years my dad would sometimes take her
out to see a play, us kids, and in more recent years her grandkids, would make
her cards covered in glitter and macaroni, my Aunt Nancy would send her
flowers, my Grandma Strang gave her cookbooks, and her friends would remember
her with calls and cards. Low key birthday were just fine with her. She was
never one to make a fuss over herself, and she most certainly was not the
diamond demanding kind of lady.
Simple gestures of love were always what my mom appreciated
most. So with what would have been her 56th birthday approaching, I knew I
wanted to do something in memory of her, something that was just a simple
gesture of love.
I contemplated making my mom’s famous butterscotch oatmeal
cookies, and giving them away to a poverty stricken taxi drivers, but I feared my
random act of kindness might be mistaken as me wanting something more than a
car ride. Visions of me being loaded up on the next camel outta Dubai, as the blushing
bride to Mr. Pak McPakistan quickly came to my mind. Alas, I (butter) scratched
that idea. Pun intended.
So in the days leading up to her birthday I purposely made
one of her favorite soups, White Chile, and froze all the leftover, just like
she always did. I bought and burnt her favorite brand of candles, and enjoyed
my apartment having the same lavender scent as the after shower body spray she
always used. Thankfully, unlike the apartment I share with my Chinese roommate,
my mom never smelled like half lavender and half mystery meat cooked in soy sauce.
On the topic of Ethnic food, several nights ago my friend
Rajeev and I were having dinner at an authentic Indian restaurant (my first
experience of this sort, food was delicious, but perhaps a bit on the spicy
side for this Midwesterner), when he told me that the next day he was planning
to volunteer at a local school for autistic children, and that I was welcome to
join him. Knowing the words “volunteer” and “Gail Schutz” are basically
synonyms, I jumped at the opportunity to give of my time, the day before her
birthday, in her memory.
My day of volunteering was a really cool experience, but very
different than any type of volunteering I had done with schools and other social
services in the USA. Unlike the extensive background checks I normally undergo
to volunteer, I literally just walked right into the school and was assigned a
classroom to assist. Within five minutes of being inside the classroom, the
teacher informed Rajeev and me that she was going to escort a child to therapy,
and asked that we keep an eye on the remaining students. While I was flattered
by her trust, in my puzzled mind I was thinking, “YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW ME!”
After spending several hours assisting children with word
comprehension, handwriting exercises, and math worksheets, we bid farewell to
the students. I wouldn’t go out on a limb and say I’m the next Mother Theresa,
or Gail Schutz for that matter, but I was happy to have volunteered in my mom’s
memory, and I knew she would have been so proud.
Yesterday was the big Kahuna, her actual birthday. I floated
in the pool, went for a run, met up with friends later that evening for
cocktails, and overall spent a lot of time thinking about my mom. It was a nice
birthday.
I’ve always loved birthdays, not just for the cake, ice
cream, and presents (although I am a big fan of all those things), but because
it represents life. I’m not a genius, I don’t understand the whole purpose of it,
but I do know that it’s short and it’s precious. Life is something to be
enjoyed and lived vibrantly. My mom got that. In her 55 years she didn’t just
make a slight difference on Earth; I think she changed the course of humanity.
That may sound a bit dramatic, but, without ever knowing it, she served as such
an influential person in so many people’s lives. I truly believe that her
legacy of service, generosity, kindness, and love will impact generations to
come!
In the card she slipped into my suitcase upon my departure
to Dubai, she wrote to me, “There are some people that come and go from a room-
from a life- and no one seems to notice one way or another, but not you!
Everyone knows when you are present, and there is a black hole when you are
gone.”
And as I reflect on her life, on what would have been her 56th
birthday, the only phrase that seems adequate is this, “Ditto, Birthday Girl,
ditto!”
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| Photo Courtesy of Warmowki Photography |